Wednesday, February 24, 2016

FOR SALE: A Piece of LisaBug's Soul...

...interesting trades considered.

I love finding old children’s books with inscriptions in them.

Knowing that someone bought this book—this EXACT COPY—to give to a youngster, hoping it would enrich their life, somehow makes the book more desirable to me than some random copy that maybe nobody ever loved. Who knows, the giver may have even passed down the treasured tome from their own personal library!

"Brett from Colleen Jeffrey Annette Jeremy '78"
Things You've Always Wanted To Know About Monsters But Were Afraid To Ask!, Tony Tallerico, 1978.

But happening upon these personalized books is also kind of sad, considering the gift has since been abandoned to the shelves of an uncaring thrift store.

It's downright bittersweet when the inscription is dated. The giver presumed the book would be held onto long enough to have forgotten exactly WHEN it was received, so recorded this very important date for posterity, right there on the page for the recipient's eternally grateful old eyes to behold.

"To Tony Ferro from Brian Bonic Oct. 1, 1979"
Horror Tales: Spirits, Spells & The Unknown, Roger Elwood, 1974.


Why do I find a book inscribed from one stranger to another so appealing?

If I still believed in the paranormal, I might theorize that an object absorbs positive emotional energy from its owner, energy that can be transferred to other people once they assume possession of the article.

I'm reminded of a circa-1980's SNL skit about an unusual pawnbroker that prices items based on their sentimental value... (full transcript)

"The other day I had a lady come in, and she dropped off all her kid's drawings! They're selling like hotcakes!"

Or this moment from The Simpsons (S12E3, Insane Clown Poppy) when Krusty the Clown, in the midst of a high-stakes poker game with Fat Tony, calls the bet with his daughter’s worthless, yet priceless, violin.

"Well, it won't bring much cash, but its sentimental value is through the roof!"

Looked at spiritually, a gifted book contains a little bit of both the giver's and the recipient's soul.

Following that line of thought into a darker place: I just acquired a piece of your soul! It's mine now, and you'll never get it back...

"To Amber Love U.Drew & A.Synette May, 1990"
Whales, Jane Watson and Rod Ruth, 1978.


Of course I'm not the first to envision books as vessels of a person's energy or essence.

Ray Bradbury probably wasn't the first either, but in the film adaptation of his Something Wicked This Way Comes, Mr. Dark steals years from the life of Charles Halloway by tearing at one of Halloway's books. Each torn page deducts a year from his lifespan and aggravates the painful pounding of his heart.


On that note, here's a recent second-hand find, a beautifully preserved copy of Alfred Hitchcock's Haunted Houseful (1961). This is a book that was well taken care of and, other than a few cracks in the dust jacket, looks as fresh today as it must have when it was originally purchased.


It was a Christmas present to Lisa, or "LisaBug", as her parents affectionately called her, and is inscribed thusly:

To: LisaBug
Hope this gives yuh the spooks!
Love from
Mom + Dad
Merry Christmas Hon
December 1969
But there's more. Sitting right next to it on the same shelf was this copy of Alfred Hitchcock's Ghostly Gallery (1962), also pristine.


It's another present, given two Christmases later. Lisa is no longer "LisaBug", perhaps having outgrown the pet name.


Merry Christmas Lisa - December 1971
Hope you like this one too!
Love from Mother + Dad

Perhaps she had also, by this time, outgrown books of this kind -- her parents oblivious to their maturing daughter's changing tastes? All we know for sure is, many Christmases later, both books ended up sitting on the shelf of a used book store, orphaned.

Much of this blog is the celebration of "stuff" that contributed something to my youth and seemed somehow, years later, important. But despite the name in the banner, most of these things were not sitting carefully stored in the a closet all these years like cherished treasures.

In fact, many were lost in the folly of youth, only to be reacquired years later after their absence gnawed at me for reasons irrational. A jigsaw puzzle, an activity book, finger puppets, a record, a comic. I've probably clocked hundreds of hours haunting thrift stores and auction web sites chasing this junk.

What drives me to pursue these things? The fleeting pleasure of shallow nostalgia? A vague attempt to reconstruct some lost aspect of myself? Am I writing my autobiography in artifacts?

And more importantly, does it ever end?

Is there one final item, perhaps unknown even to me until I've stumbled upon it... a missing keystone that finishes the quest forever?


In "Adrift off the Islets of Langerhans" (1974, Harlan Ellison, from the book Deathbird Stories) the intersection of childhood ephemera and eternity is explored in the person of one Larry Talbot, who commissions, from otherworldly cartographers, a map detailing the geographic coordinates of the eternal soul within his own body. (The Islets of Langerhans, for those who slept through biology class, are not found in any ocean but refer to a feature of the human pancreas.)

With the help of a scientist friend, a microscopic clone ("mite") of Talbot is created and inserted into his own full size body, beginning a months-long quest that is as much metaphysical as it is anatomical. As Talbot's mite, travelling by tiny boat, finally closes in on the corporeal estate of his soul, he suddenly finds himself amidst a cache of lost childhood treasures.

"When at last he reached the shore of the pancreatic sea, he found a great many things he had lost or given away when he was a child. He found a wooden machine gun on a tripod, painted olive drab, that made a rat-tat-tatting sound when a wooden handle was cranked. He found a set of toy soldiers, two companies, one Prussian and the other French, with a miniature Napoleon Bonaparte among them. He found a microscope kit with slides and petri dishes and racks of chemicals in nice little bottles, all of which bore uniform labels. He found a milk bottle filled with Indian-head pennies. He found a hand puppet with the head of a monkey and the name Rosco painted on the fabric glove with nail polish. He found a pedometer. ... He found a box of radio premiums: a cardboard detective kit with fingerprint dusting powder, invisible ink and a list of police-band call codes...

But there was something missing.

He could not remember what it was, but it was important. ...

Whatever was missing was very important."

I wonder if LisaBug has any regrets about her own lost childhood treasures.

Is she missing something very important, but cannot remember what it is? Is there a hole in her soul, an empty space perfectly fitted to a copy of Ghostly Gallery?

And if I were to start tearing pages out of her book, will she suddenly, inexplicably, clutch her heart..?

7 comments:

gregcondon said...

wonderful post. i just discovered this blog and have been going through the archives the past few days. great stuff!

highwayknees said...

This is a very poetic post. I'm not sure how old you are but I can completely relate to your quest. I have been searching for collectables from my childhood for half my adult life it seems. Most of these things are books of course, but sometimes toys and even "art glass" decanters that are now coined on ebay as "mid century modern" items.

I also have the same affinity for inscribed books because of my similar history of giving and receiving them. I had a copy of one of those old 60s Hitchcock books called Monster Museum that haunted me till i found it again. I think it was responsible, along with a book of Poe tales, for my love of horror to this day.

I don't think all baby-boomers are as influenced by nostalgia as I am-but it is a real soft spot for me that I have pondered on many occasions. Am i trying to buy back my youth? Return to a happier time? Or just wallow in self-pity? Beats me! It never ends ...

Brother Bill said...

@gregcondon - Welcome to the blog, and thanks for the kind words!

@highwayknees - I just recently replaced my long lost copy of Monster Museum as well (not mentioned in this post since it was not inscribed)... FYI I'm a Gen-Xer who consumed a lot of Boomer-era pop culture as a kid

razorcandyblog said...

I have been reading your blog a long, long time (since 2009 or so) and this is my first comment. This post really tugged at my heartstrings. Beautifully done, loved the Something Wicked references/

Brother Bill said...

Thanks for riding it out with me, razorcandyblog! The comments section doesn't seem to get a lot of action, so never really sure just who is reading this stuff or what their reaction is....

Tricia Kelley said...

Got to your blog via Kindertrauma. I love this post! I, too, feel the lure of lost childhood toys calling to me from thrift stores and flea markets. I have always loved that Harlan Ellison story and never forgot the part about "a great many things he had lost or given away as a child." Just seemed so profound. Can't wait to read more posts. Thanks!

Unknown said...

I just came across this... my name is Brian Bonic and i gifted that book to my best friend since we were born. Is there anyway i can get it back to send to Tony again?